All posts tagged: boys

Some Grotesque Teenage Beast of a Boy – 6th & 7th August 1999

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Friday 6thRhian, Abby and I went swimming today. The main reason behind it was not to swim but to see Ben McFarlane. We did but only briefly. He wasn’t actually doing his pool attending like we’d hoped but he was in the shop part. I saw Rhian’s friend Laura Morgan’s brother, Duncan, today. The rest of his family are in Florida but he’s stayed here with his auntie who’s having a barbeque tomorrow to which we’re invited. Duncan was working in his parent’s café today and Rhian was ordered by Auntie S to introduce us to him, seeing as he’ll be at this barbeque as well, but she didn’t. Instead, Rhian got food and I got a good look at Duncan. I’ve never seen him before but Abby saw him at Christmas and Rhian sees him all the time and they both told me he was minging. So, I went in there expecting him to be some grotesque teenage beast of a boy but in fact I was…

All she seems to talk about is her hair – 18th June 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Thursday 18thI’ve been feeling a bit left out of everything for the last couple of days. It might just be me being sensitive bit it feels as if nobody really cares I’m there. – Emma’s too busy with Freddie all the time and all she seems to talk about is her hair and how many spots she has today. – Hayley would rather I wasn’t here at all coz she’s decided she wants a boyfriend so has started fancying Ferny again and, of course, I’m competition aren’t I? – Ralph just doesn’t give a toss about me anymore which is a big difference from the beginning of last week. – Rachael went to Emma’s house last night and they phoned Freddie and evidently they were talking about me. I dunno what was said though. – Ed seems to think I’ve been telling Dougie (James Douglas) things about him when I haven’t said a word. I dunno what’s going on. I also get the feeling that nobody’s telling me…

A massive wave of jealousy and annoyance came over me – 12th June 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Friday 12th [Cleo the cat’s hairs sellotaped in to my diary foreverrrrrr. Well, for 18 years. Still pretty gross.] An awful end to an awful week. Ralph hates me and I’m ill. We went to the cinema tonight with Emma, Freddie, Hayley, Lindsey Bullman, Georgia Dean, Safiyah L and Olivia. We all split up. Georgia and Safiyah saw Sliding Doors, Lindsey and Olivia saw Scream 2 and me, Ralph, Freddie, Emma and Hayley all went to see The Wedding Singer. It was quite a good film but Ralph went all miserable and sat on his own. Hayley said he said I was a bitch but Emma said he said an evil witch. Either way – BASTARD! Well, he wasn’t much company on the way to McDonald’s either. There were just the four of is coz Hayley went early with everyone else. He didn’t say one word to me. I don’t understand coz he spoke to me in school. I know he’s gone off me and doesn’t like me…

Ralph asked me out today – 15th February 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Sunday 15thWe got up at about 7:00am and got ready in our ski gear and went for brekkie at 8:00am. We had bread rolls and jam and tea and coffee and stuff. Skiing lessons started at 9:30 so we all made our way to the bottom of the nursery slope. They split us into 2 groups and I got put with my mates. Then we had to do snow ploughs down and they split us again. I was in a group with a woman instructor called Manuella and Emma, Cat, Georgia etc. and Ralph and Ferny. As we were going down, Ferny kept falling and eventually he went to the instructor to tell her his knee had swollen up. He just sat out all day. I felt really sorry for him. We went back to the hotel for lunch then had another 2 hours afterwards. It was dead good between the end of the afternoon session and tea. We had about 3 hours and were bored so when Jez…

Dougie asked where I was. Twice. – 17th January 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Saturday 17thI phoned Emma this morning. I wasn’t as bothered about it as I was last night so I thought I’d give her a chance to explain. Plus I was bored! She said she thought I knew she was going. She told me what had happened and said I hadn’t missed much except they all nearly got twatted in McDonald’s by these lads causing trouble. She also said Dougie asked where I was. Twice. The 1st time, he said, “Why hasn’t Tess come?” Emma told him I couldn’t be bothered and the 2nd time he said, “Where’s Tess again?” She then told me he said I was “quite quiet really” and that Ed agreed with him. Bastards! [I don’t know why I was always so offended at being called quiet. I was.] She said to them that I wasn’t and they just didn’t know me properly. She said I got off lightly and said they were slagging Hayley off and saying she was annoying. They can’t talk! Especially…

“Both of them wanna go out with you” – 18th January 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Sunday 18thWell, only 4 of us ended up going to Bolton Water Place today. Sarah, Lizzie, Emma and I. We all met up at Emma’s and were going to get the bus. I got to the bus stop and realised I didn’t have enough change so I left the other 3 and ran home. Luckily there was someone in  and my mum ended up taking us all. It was quite busy at the Water Place and we kept seeing lookalikes. We thought we saw Will Fernley, Ralph, Neil Kennedy, Jez and Cleggy (Tim Clegg). They weren’t, they just looked like them. As soon as we got in the water. We saw 3 lads looking at us from the pool higher up. We thought we’d go up and see. One of ‘em was the Cleggy lookalike, only nicer. There was a little one who looked like Colin McKay (a lad in my sister’s year) and there was an older looking one who wasn’t fit with blonde hair. After a…