All posts filed under: teen years

Sometimes I Feel Like I’m Never Going to Find My Soulmate

Originally posted on My 20-Year Diary:
06/08/03 (Sunday):  This week has been pretty hectic for me. I’ve had to wake up around 9 or 10 in the morning for the past five days to go to work. It sucked because I’ve been sick since Thursday.  Anyway, my graduation was on Wednesday, May 28th, and I ended up crying. I was upset because I had hoped somehow Jordan would show up and when he didn’t, it really made me realize that things with him and I are over and I’ll probably never see him again once I leave for college. Soon my mom is going to make me go to a gynecologist for an exam. My period is never consistent, and my cramps are so bad that it will sometimes make me throw up. I’m really scared the doctors are going to tell me there’s something wrong with me, like I can’t have kids or something. Seriously, if you only knew how painful my cramps are every month…there HAS to be something wrong. I’m scared and…

They’ve Bloody Done It!!! – 25th-27th May 1999

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Tuesday 25thI had my multiple choice Geography exam today. It was solid! You could hear the groans echo round the examination room as the people doing the higher paper opened it up to reveal the questions! I went back to Ed’s with Emma, Cat Elliot and Davis Nolan after the exam coz we only had an hour or so before Swing Band started. Davis and I have never really got on before but recently he’s started being really nice to me and he kept tickling me and stuff and he even had his arm round me at one point today. He’s with Emma though sort of so it doesn’t worry me much, it’s just more weird than anything else but then he’s American so that can explain a lot!! Only joking! He kept questioning me on Ollie, asking me if he was good and stuff. I squirmed my way out of answering the question though somehow! He was quite gentle with me (Ollie this is) but I’d probably…

Then v. Now: 5 Old “Websites” 90s Kids Will Remember

Bebo/Xanga Both were popular sites for young adults, girls especially, in the early/mid 2000s. They were the perfect places to keep a “private” or public online journal, currently known as blogging.

All she seems to talk about is her hair – 18th June 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Thursday 18thI’ve been feeling a bit left out of everything for the last couple of days. It might just be me being sensitive bit it feels as if nobody really cares I’m there. – Emma’s too busy with Freddie all the time and all she seems to talk about is her hair and how many spots she has today. – Hayley would rather I wasn’t here at all coz she’s decided she wants a boyfriend so has started fancying Ferny again and, of course, I’m competition aren’t I? – Ralph just doesn’t give a toss about me anymore which is a big difference from the beginning of last week. – Rachael went to Emma’s house last night and they phoned Freddie and evidently they were talking about me. I dunno what was said though. – Ed seems to think I’ve been telling Dougie (James Douglas) things about him when I haven’t said a word. I dunno what’s going on. I also get the feeling that nobody’s telling me…

A massive wave of jealousy and annoyance came over me – 12th June 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Friday 12th [Cleo the cat’s hairs sellotaped in to my diary foreverrrrrr. Well, for 18 years. Still pretty gross.] An awful end to an awful week. Ralph hates me and I’m ill. We went to the cinema tonight with Emma, Freddie, Hayley, Lindsey Bullman, Georgia Dean, Safiyah L and Olivia. We all split up. Georgia and Safiyah saw Sliding Doors, Lindsey and Olivia saw Scream 2 and me, Ralph, Freddie, Emma and Hayley all went to see The Wedding Singer. It was quite a good film but Ralph went all miserable and sat on his own. Hayley said he said I was a bitch but Emma said he said an evil witch. Either way – BASTARD! Well, he wasn’t much company on the way to McDonald’s either. There were just the four of is coz Hayley went early with everyone else. He didn’t say one word to me. I don’t understand coz he spoke to me in school. I know he’s gone off me and doesn’t like me…

I might never get married. Who knows?! – 20th April 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Monday 20thP. [Period.] It’s scary how fast time seems to be going at the moment. It hardly seems any time at all since I first started school in Year 7 and now I’m in Year 10 and more than half way through. It seems ages away until my major GCSE exams but everything is going so quickly. Back at school today. Back to normal. Normal shouldn’t be being at school but term time is the way it is more than anything else and it’s the routine I’ve got used to. I’d rather we had more holidays, even with the boring bits. That’s one advantage about school – I never seem to get bored. I mean, I don’t like some of the lessons much but I’m always doing something. Then at lunch and break I can catch up on all the gossip or watch Ralph and co playing sad little ball games on the tennis courts. I suppose if we didn’t have school then I would never have known…

I Have a Bad Feeling About This

Originally posted on My 20-Year Diary:
06/10/01: Today we went to the Mall of America. Oh my gosh, it’s so huge! It has five floors and a bunch of rides and stuff. There is basically a whole amusement park called Camp Snoopy that’s inside. And guess what?! You can also get married in the mall! Haha. We ate at a restaurant called the Rainforest Café, which was sooo cool. It was designed as a real rainforest with moving mechanical animals and there were fake storms where everything got dark, there was thunder, and things vibrated. It was awesome. Then I rode on a roller-coaster which was inside, and there was a log ride with a huge drop. That was fun. I bought a football for Jordan and got a lot of new clothes for myself. We went back to the hotel and rested for about an hour, and then walked to a restaurant called Baker’s Square, which is known for their wonderful tasting pies. After dinner, I came back to the hotel and called Jordan.…

Rolling down a hill with Jez – 17th February 1998

Originally posted on If Destroyed Still True:
Tuesday 17thWe got put into different groups again. I got put in the better group to go down the big slope with some instructor called Sonia who had a go at you if you fell over. In my good group there was me, Rachael, Georgia, Josie Nichol, Jim Brackenhurst, Graham Baxter, little 5 yr old Jack L (Mrs L’s son) and Miss P. After lunch we went all the way down the mountain. It was quite steep and some parts were quite scary. We also did the slalom and jumps and stuff. It was good at lunch. The kitchen staff had made packed lunches which we ate in the café at the top of the mountain. We had from 12:00 noon ‘til 1:30pm and we all had a snowball fight coz it was the one snowy day we’d had. I ended up rolling down a hill with Jez which I can’t say I minded really! I still like Jez and Ferny but Ralph, Freddie and Graham are being…