All posts filed under: self

Being Shameless

Originally posted on Clueless 20 Something:
I am an aspiring painter. I am an aspiring entertainer. I am… not getting anywhere because I have no idea how to promote myself. Raised to never talk about my abilities to others (because “people will notice it themselves without you boasting.”),  broadcasting what I can do feels so counterintuitive, I change the topic before anyone understands what I’m trying to say. My timidity stems from the awareness that I am not the best. I fall within the range of pretty decent to good, but since I’m only good at best, I always worry that people will judge me for being proud of nothing that great. But now, after having perused numerous Instagram, DeviantArt, and YouTube pages, I’ve concluded that the most popular aren’t necessarily the best at what they do. They’re just the people who post the most content and are, in some cases, the most shameless. Frankly, I think much of the world has changed their definition of what boastful is. Unless you’re completely crappy with a mismatched…

Missing Happy Hour -a step in the right direction

Originally posted on Bent Beginnings:
Happy Hour – the American past time where coworkers and friends meet to enjoy each others company, spend money, and get drunk. Well at least drink. Here’s the thing, I’m not on this journey to discourage anyone from drinking, or to say drinking is bad. But drinking is bad for me. I say that because I don’t like the person I become when I drink. This is hard to admit, but I am not a nice person when I drink. Now it doesn’t happen every time, but it happens enough.First step’s are admitting, so here I am, admitting my faults. So this is where Bent Beginnings begins. Now, Happy Hour… why does it matter if I missed it? Who cares… Well, I do, and the monthly scheduled Happy Hour’s are a great way for me to connect with members of the club I joined. But my question is why can’t we do other activities in order to connect? Again, it comes down to culture, right? Our American culture deems it “normal” to…

A Letter to My 20-Year-Old Self

Originally posted on Am I Thirty Yet:
So tomorrow is the big day! The day this entire blog was written about. I turn 30! Turning 30 has made me think a lot about what it was like when I was turning 20 and saying goodbye to my teens. I didn’t handle it very well. There were panic attacks and I actually wet the bed the night of my birthday. (This is a true story and maybe I’ll tell you lucky people about it in another post.) For now, let’s go back to poor, little 20-year-old Liz. She was not excited about leaving her teens behind her and entering her twenties. Current Liz still isn’t 100% sure on what she wants with her life and the direction it is going to take. But 20-year-old Liz might as well have been on another planet. She didn’t even know what hairstyle worked best for her face or how to put on eyeliner. She was a lost soul who needed a lot of guidance. Now being a wise, almost 30-year-old (that…

Don’t Go To College

Originally posted on How Do I Grown Up:
My senior year of high school, I was burned out, I was exhausted, I’d busted my butt in extracurriculars, carried an active social life and maintain pretty good marks for 13 years. I was ready for a break; college didn’t look all that appetizing. But my parents, my friends, and my teachers told me to just go to college. Go and experience. Go and learn. Go and be free. So I did. At the time there weren’t other options, or at least none that I knew about. I could go to college or I could live with my parents and work in town. All the great wise men told me that college would get me a career, it was the only thing that would. So I went. And I experienced. And I think I learned, though probably not what was on the syllabus. College was…not fun for me, it wasn’t a grand opening of my mind or an essential activity to my youth. It was certainly not…

I’d like to say I’m sorry…

Originally posted on the hoe handbook:
Dear Professors, I’m sorry for not trying as hard as I should have.  I genuinely enjoy each and every one of your classes and would have loved to give them my all this semester (yes, I actually like school), but alas, pledging had other ideas.  I know it’s not an excuse because other people have serious time commitments and still find time to give their academics 100%, but I was simply not prepared for the physical and mental exhaustion that would come from just having one more activity on my plate.  I promise I will try my best to end this semester on a high note, but thank you for working with me.  Most importantly, thank you for buying my bullshit and giving me extra points when I did not really deserve them. Dear My Boys (who live with), I’m sorry for looking like shit all the time.  I haven’t been doing my hair or wearing make up all semester and while you have not failed to hit on…