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How to Interact With the Barista Boy in 3 Ways

Originally posted on How To Get Things Done in 10 Ways:
So there are a couple of Starbucks I go to on occasion. My goal in life is to really have a place where I walk in and they already know my name and my drink. I know, I really dream big on that one. Anyway, I don’t visit Starbucks nearly enough for anyone to know who I am or even care for that matter. Yet. Anyway, back to the point of this post. Since I’m awkward, I can never tell if boys are flirting or just being weird…but I have had some pretty interesting comments from different barista boys at all of the local Starbucks. ? 1. I go inside, order my drink, pick it up from the counter, get in my car, drive 30 minutes to work, get to my desk, take a sip, set the cup down, and that’s when I see it. The barista boy had asked my name to write it on the cup, and he had written it – even…

Dating Older: The First Time I Realized I Liked Older Guys

Originally posted on I swiped right when I should have just left:
Ever since I can remember, people have always told me that I was very mature for my age or that I have an “old soul”. Growing up, I realized this as well. I always looked at my peers in disgust at the stupid things they did and often wondered why I didn’t have my own talk show like Oprah. Though my “favorite things show” would consist of expensive bottles of wine and endless amounts of food, I think I would offer reasonable advice to my peers in need. I had my first “older guy crush” when I was fourteen. I am going to call him Conan. (Because he kind of looked like a 17 year old Conan O’ Brien.) My fourteen year old self thought he was a red headed babe who liked cool bands, played the drums, and who rode his bike for miles into the sunset. In reality, he was a fucking overweight ginge who knew one song on the drums,…

The Outside World

Originally posted on Chitchat:
??? ???? ???? ?? ???I don’t quite have social anxiety. I don’t quite have social phobia. I think a lot of people see me as loud, confident and some maybe even think I voice my opinion too freely. That’s because when I’m passionate about a subject, I want to share that passion. A couple of years ago, after returning from a birthday party for one of my dad’s friends, I overheard him saying to his girlfriend “yeah, we’re both quite shy.”, the we in question being him and I. I’m not sure why, but I resented this.? I knew full well that it was true, that when I saw other kids my age I preferred to look down at my iPod or book because that’s what felt safer and that meeting new people made me so uncomfortable that it made me literally tremble. But I wanted to be outgoing and confident and funny. I knew I could be that person and I wanted to reflect that into reality but I just…

Harder than Stone

Originally posted on I swiped right when I should have just left:
When you first dive into the world of dating after being in a relationship, all your insecurities are visibly intact. The way you eat, the funny way you say words, and your lack of confidence. I’m personally more concerned with if there’s food in my teeth, if he’s questioning my eyebrow game, or if I reek of alcohol and regret. People pick up on insecurities on the first date – especially if it’s someone you’re very interested in. The first guy I was genuinely interested in from the online dating world was Pandora’s Box. Yes, I just nicknamed him Pandora’s Box. To my friends, I actually call him Pandora (insert guys name here) but like I said, for sake of humiliation, I’ll use the nickname my co-worker gave him. I was pulling an all-nighter for school when I got a message from him asking if I liked watching hockey and he commented on my music taste, which is excellent, if I must say. I liked…